we are most alive in dreams
To say we are always awake, is not true.
My name is Todd. I write words that make stories. Most of them are true. Let's connect.
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"All of my dreams, I hope they don't leave me too"
Ask me things or send me an email at wearemostaliveindreams@gmail.com.
My name is Todd. I write words that make stories. Most of them are true. Let's connect.
This work is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.
"All of my dreams, I hope they don't leave me too"
Ask me things or send me an email at wearemostaliveindreams@gmail.com.
dark thoughts
i’m sick.
it’s not the flu.
it’s my mind.
i’ve been writing in the notebooks i keep within arms reach off and on all day long. some of it is alright, i suppose. i don’t really like anything that i write. if i really like it, it usually has nothing to do with the subject but more with the diction or phrasing or adjectives. sometimes it’s just about the way it looks or feels.
if i really, really like what i have written i don’t post it.
i usually throw it away and then try to do it better, which is starting to freak me out. my paranoia has me thinking that i’ll never be who i was, or never write the way i used to after this very moment because things have changed. because i have changed. in the next second, something has changed. something in the world is different. someone is dying. someone is being born. nothing will ever be the same.
everything is constantly changing inside my head and inside my heart. i don’t know who i am anymore and i think it’s starting to kill me. sometimes it’s slow, like when i try to sleep. sometimes it’s during the day when i’m at work and it happens all at once and it takes a quick trip outside for fresh air and to gag on an empty stomach before i can find my lungs and calm my heart.
are you comfortable? are you listening? are you reading?
buckle up friends. whatever is lurking inside my head is not for the faint of heart and i’m sorry to say that you have to be the audience that watches me gut myself on such a grand stage.
One Day as a Lion - Wild International
not sure if this video is going to work. i tried to watch it as part of my ‘morning anthem’ but for whatever reason it wouldn’t play. so, part of the reason i am posting this is for myself, but if you enjoy it, well then i am glad.
for those of you that don’t know about One Day as a Lion, it features Zack de la Rocha from Rage Against the Machine and Jon Theodore, former drummer for The Mars Volta.
for those of you that don’t know anything about those bands or people, well, i fear there is no hope for you. but, better late than never, right?
Simple Kind of Man - Deftones
yea, this is a cover. for those of you that don’t know about Lynyrd Skynyrd well i fear there is no hope for you.
this is for all of you old school/new school fans.
Deftones’ new album Diamond Eyes is fucking spectacular and i think they did a really good job with this cover. it’s true to the original and with Chino’s airy-at-some-points/powerful-when-he-wants vocals this cover hits my heart strings just right.
obviously this is just audio so for those of you that need visual stimulation as well i’m sorry. deal with it <3
i like when Gmail encourages me to continue reading all of the messages that come to me with such enthusiasm.
we’re obviously good friends, Gmail and i.
you should be jealous.
Team Sleep - Ever (Foreign Flag)
been on a huge Deftones/Team Sleep kick recently. i don’t know why and frankly i don’t really mind. chino is great. the deftones are great. team sleep is great.
music is fucking great.
enjoy, friends and happy monday.
-Todd
